Beforty | Begin Again
People talk about resolutions every time the clock strikes midnight on New Year's Eve. Some promise to go to the gym more often while others make commitments about eating less sugar. I've always thought New Year's resolutions were a waste of time, truth be told. The transition from one year to the next is really no different than from any other month to another. Besides, once the confetti has been swept away and the last of the champagne glasses have been hung to dry, most people abandon their resolutions anyway. Yet every year, we continue to make promises we can't keep.
We rang in the new year a few weeks ago, and my hopes for positive change in 2018 have already been tested more than I'd like to acknowledge. This is a strange time we're living in. There's dysfunction in the government, volatility in the markets, and disruption in the big industries. Everywhere, there's uncertainty.
But I'm trying more than I ever have before to uphold a resolution I made for this year. I'm trying to find a positive side to everything and to focus on the things that matter most. I drown out the nightly news and I use the business section of the paper to line the cat box. I take these pictures, and in each, I focus on the colors instead of the shadows. It's not denial, it's resolve. And I choose resolve over resolutions any day.
I'm a quarter of the way between my 39th and 40th year and, regardless of the Beforty 365 project, this will undoubtedly be a year I never forget. It's hard to say whether it's circumstantial, or whether it's because of the Beforty project itself. In a sense, I think it may be a combination of both. Capturing an image every day for a year has a way of slowing down even the fastest-moving of years. Occasionally I'll think about how this project will end on my fortieth birthday, and I wonder what I'll do then. But if there's a theme to this year, it's about not knowing what comes next. So until it happens, all I have then is my camera... and my resolve.